Monday, June 7, 2010 ♥
complicated love ♥ 9:30 PM
Today we took bus and lrt to setapak lo.
because tomorrow got class.
in bus, you were sleeping and i was listening to songs.
i was feeling very calm and get used to YOUR COLDNESS this few days.
we seems like no topic to talk. don't know why T.T
after reached there, you asked me about the food and bla bla.
you don't even tell me you want to eat.
then you asked me' you want back or what?'
i answered 'you want me alone back mea?'
In my words, i meant that i want to accompany you.
but you missunderstood and angry then straight walk away from me.
i don't even know what had happened but you just throw me alone at roadside.
I was standing at there for few mins, waiting you to return.
then i walk and following you.
You didn't notice me and finally v get lost of each others.
in fact, i am not really a independent girl.
I scare alone very very very much.
I can't find you and i nearly cry.
and then i take out my phone and call you.
haix. nvm. this time i act nothing and i control myself from anger.
after that cute haw, shu hoon and wei hao come find us at chinese mamak,
you took cigarette from Qhaw and smoking in front of me.
AIkksss. i starred at you.
but you tried to ignore me.
this time i really angry already.
this is not the first time i give you chance.
i didnot show my anger or scold you but i just keep quiet.
i am really disappointed to you seriously.
you promised me once and once again not to touch cigarettes.
did you take this promises seriously !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't want your comfort after make me sad.
don't want your promise somemore.
this time, i started to realize that i am really nobody.
galfriend? so what ?
just a NAME and you would not listen to me.
should say NEVER !
i really tired to care you ad and i promise,
i promise you !
i won't control you from anythings. do whatever you want.
because i know,
if you love me, you will try your best to protect me from hurt.
LAST, i am sorry for i began to doubt your love.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .